I've Lost My Edge!

Whats that saying?.. Don't put off what you can do now for later... or something like that. I lost a half of what gave me some edge due to not caring and bad judgement. Didn't think it would close off in a matter of a few hours I mean shoot you've been there for six years!! The body works in such mystifying ways. Not sure exactly what I'm gonna do with the other one frankly I don't feel balanced.